Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Drunken Minds

He downed the last traces of his amber scotch and toasted the bartender with his empty glass. He really ought to stop drinking down. Four scotches down, he was already inviting the mother of all hangovers. Yet, as the bartender refilled his glass, he couldn’t stop himself from reaching out towards. He ran one long finger through the glistening condensation and then picked the glass up. He looked around himself.

It was the usual weekday crowd, sprinkled in between were small groups of celebrations. He liked these moments the best. The people didn’t crowd around you and blow smoke in your face, but they didn’t desert you completely either. His eyes parked on at the woman sitting on the couch beside the mirrored wall. She was looking back at him too. She smiled seductively at him and raised a silent toast in his direction. He returned her toast and then turned his back on her.

In the mirror behind the bartender, he could still see her. But all he could think of was black eyes. Almond shaped black eyes, fringed with thick long lashes; eyes which sparkled with laughter and misted with emotions. He was in love with her eyes. But then he was in love with the way she spoke too. The unnoticed lisp she tried so hard to cover? That was so adorable. She had sexy feet. The pink toe nails she wriggled to relieve stress? They turned him on in a way in which horny porn stars never could.

And yet he was here, alone in a bar drinking scotch after scotch, seeking traces of her existence in the burn of the liquid. His love undeclared, unclaimed, silent. Why didn’t he tell her about it?

He took a swig of his drink. He didn’t tell her because he had dreams, where she had constrictions. She had problems, to which he had no solutions. She had the strength, but he lacked the will to back it. She was trapped and he couldn’t slay the dragons to set her free. But he loved her. He loved her with a passion he couldn’t explain to himself. He hated himself for being such a coward. But if he was honest with himself, he wasn’t strong enough to carry both their burdens.

Maybe he was. Maybe he just never tried. Maybe he should try. He wiped the traces of liquid from around his lips and headed out of the bar. Maybe he should tell her tonight. Maybe she had all the answers. Maybe tonight would be his last maybe.

As the clear breeze of the cool night slapped some sobriety into him, he pulled his cell phone out. For a long moment he stared at it. He heaved in a deep sigh and dialed her number. The phone just kept on ringing. It seemed she would never pick up.

“Hello?” she said groggily. God! She sounded so hot when she was sleepy.

“Hey..” he managed.

“Umm.. is it me or is it really one in the morning?”

“Its you.”

“Uhuh.. you been drinking?”

“Nah!”

“Ok! Is this something important?”

“Nah!”

“You ok?”

“Hmmm”

“Is there something you want to say?”

“Naaah”

“You called just like that?”

“Uhuh!”

“ok do you want to hang up?”

“Nah!”

“You want me to guess what you called for?”

“uhuh..”

“This is exasperating. Do u need a taxi home?”

“Nah!”

“Then..?”

“Nothing”

“You know what? Guys normally call up in the middle of the night to make romantic proclamations. Are you in one of those moods?”

“Uhuh..”

“You want to make a romantic proclamation?!!”

“uhuh..”

“Ok, who’s the girl?”

40 comments:

Pollyannaish said...

uuuhhhh!! ....why..did u hv to end it right thr..!!
why cannot a guy ever speak his mind..neither in reality..nor in fiction !!

ranjana said...

hahahahahahahaha.....your post is amazing...n this reminds me of a true incident that happened with me....the so called love of my life( now ex love of my life) was equally shy of expressing his feelings for me. So one day out of sheer desperation i ended up asking him " Do you have a crush on me?" The poor guy didn't know to say n where to look for nexxt half an hour but my candid question did help.....just corroborates your story...awesome

Beauty and the BEast said...

@ pollyannaish

because my fictional guys.. have a startling reality to guys in real life... :P

Beauty and the BEast said...

@ ranjana

How sweet!! An how romantic...

Prakhar said...

Es bello!! :)

I feel little bit of your protagonist in me...or prbbly guys in general are like that!

But smthin as neat as scotch...no hangover ..trust me!!

Pranay said...

Fantastic....
Absolutely loved this paragraph..."He took a swig of his drink. He didn’t tell her because he had dreams, where she had constrictions. She had problems, to which he had no solutions. She had the strength, but he lacked the will to back it. She was trapped and he couldn’t slay the dragons to set her free. But he loved her. He loved her with a passion he couldn’t explain to himself. He hated himself for being such a coward. But if he was honest with himself, he wasn’t strong enough to carry both their burdens"
How do u think of such things..I will never know...but it is up there amongst the best.
But why did U end it this way??? I wanna know what happened!!! :((
:D

Mavron said...

beauty ur writing is an adorable mix of sense and fun...not dat they cant go together..just dat u make life sound so much fun..even when it;s not all dat happy.keep writing... :) :)

Mavron said...

n trust me i dnt wanna know wat happened..cos well dont we all knw wat happens...??? :)

Tyro said...

Ha Ha Ha ,Too good, seriously I liked it very much ,Hmmmmmm .
And can you tell me what what
do you coin such guys ? hahahaha, my inquisitiveness ... I am not running on the potential danger to revel a lot I guess ?
But I can assure you one thing , they
are not coward .

mayz said...

1. love her description
2. love d way u have expressed his doubts
3. brilliant endin

me in love said...

this is soooooooo interesting!!! :D

hehehe but i need more .. nut lolz..still, loved the ending :P :*

me in love said...

"He didn’t tell her because he had dreams, where she had constrictions." hehe that was funny too..

hope am not soundin tipsy?

Crimson Feet said...

i admit i have fallen short of words to appreciate you, your mind, your imagination, your simplicity.

Keshi said...

hahahahahahahaha love the last line!!!!!


Keshi.

comfortably numb said...

another classic dear *claps*
loved d para whr u r portraying his doubts n offcourse d conv
btw...r all of us guyz so tongue-tied??i hope not

Khamakha said...

am feelin sad for the guy:(

marvin the paranoid android said...

well well... interesting is the least i can say... bears stark resemblence to reality, does it not??

El Furibundo said...

This guy should drink *lots* of whiskey and listen to 'Hey Jude' (the Beatles) twenty-seven times, back to back.
Anyway, can we expect a sequel?

crasiezt said...

"...glistening condensation..." beautiful!!

I just loved the narration, and I swear I couldn't predict the end!!

Am wondering what happened after that..you gonna write a sequel for people like me???

Must say delightful read!! Kudos!

MAN IN PAINTING said...

It is very very difficult to write like this.The mood swings,twists and the end.loved it.
it was like a drive through an unknown terrain for me.Not the physical real thing but the strings of the puppets you were holding .They were hidden.I knew the surprise was coming.But couldn't predict.
The words were acting drowsy then sleepy and before final the kick.
Drunken master!
Write maximum.
wishes.

gunj said...

men are &*^(*&)*(_
i swear i dont have words to describe em....%&^*()*(_

great post!! as always!! :)

Beauty and the BEast said...

@ Prakhar

no hangovers you say??

Maybe I should switch over to scotch too then ;)

Beauty and the BEast said...

@ Pranay

The essence is in the suspense :p

How do I think of such things?? Umm.. err.. I get inspired by real life incidents :)

Beauty and the BEast said...

@ mavron

coming from you I accept that as a very high praise indeed!! Considering I have been enraptured by your writings!!

and of course we all know what happens :P

Beauty and the BEast said...

@ tyro

no..I do not think they are cowards either!!

A lil shy and some nervous.. and hesitant.. thats all!

Beauty and the BEast said...

@ mayz

Thank you!!

Beauty and the BEast said...

@ me in love

Just high on life but definitely not tipsy :P

And you know I love it when you smile.. so glad cud do it again!

Beauty and the BEast said...

@ crimson feet

I seriously achieved all that??!! :o

:p

Beauty and the BEast said...

@ keshi

:D

Beauty and the BEast said...

@ comfortably numb

thank you!!

Not all you guys.. just some.. :O

Beauty and the BEast said...

@ khamakha

awww thats sweet.. but dont... who knows perhaps he did find his true love

Beauty and the BEast said...

@ marvin

a very alienating reality :P

Beauty and the BEast said...

@ el furibundo

thanks for the suggestion!!! ;)

I think this story ends here though..

Beauty and the BEast said...

@ crasiezt

lol!! Thank you thank you!!

Nah no sequel.. just a lot left to imagination!!

Beauty and the BEast said...

@ man in painting

Thank you so much! Glad you enjoyed the read!

Beauty and the BEast said...

@ gunj

the expressions were enough :p

Thank you!

d SINNER!!! said...

the expression of doubts was gud but it seems it cud hav been better...

g-man said...

ouch! that pretty much sounds like your average guy though :| drat! now i want some scotch

What's In A Name ? said...

u do have a good narrative style. will come back to read more.

Gypsy said...

lol! that was a GOOD one! incidentally, i know a couple of girls who make messes of romantic declarations as well, so maybe its not a guy thing at all!