Saturday, April 26, 2008

Sacred Evil

Listening to the songs playing on his computer, his thoughts went to the name of the album- Sacred Evil. Oh yes, sacred evil. What would be an oxymoron to most was the ultimate truth of life to him. For that matter anything he saw, he could relate to whatever was engulfing his mind.

Sitting in his easychair, he was just watching the blades of the ceiling fan. And thinking. Thinking how success can spell the doom.

A couple of years back, when he had just started creating a mask for himself, had someone told him that his mask would be so close to perfection he would not have believed. But now it had become. Indeed he had been able to hold his own against everyone, choosing at will who all to be allowed to have a peek at his real face, his real self. The world knew him to be what he wanted it to know, and only those who mattered knew the reality.

But now, one of those trusted ones was believing the mask rather than him. The mask had overtaken the personality. For him, the mask had been Sacred. And now it was Evil.

27 comments:

me in love said...

i don't why, but this sounds.. familiar.. :P

wrote well, like it...

marvin the paranoid android said...

@ me in love
maybe familiar.. maybe just looking for familiarity...

Beauty and the BEast said...

the Jekyl and Hyde...

I think there is a little evil in all of us (of course I wont deny that it is more in some than others) and all of us wear masks most of the times. In fact sometimes we get so carried away with pretences that we actually start living them. That is when two identities get iterspersed.

Is there a point to me rambling on about this..

Besides that your post provoked me to think about that which I seldom think

marvin the paranoid android said...

not about that... the Jeckyl and Hyde and inbuilt... i was talking of an identity deliberately created...

Crimson Feet said...

there are tremendous learnings hidden in such a human happenstance..
i wonder about the need of that mask.. and its nature... was it worth it?

marvin the paranoid android said...

@ crimson evil
yes it was worth it... it protected him from all the unwanted attention... and hence served it purpose..

vagabond dreamer said...

masks have a way of overwhelming reality and they become so big that ultimately that there is no choice but to listen to the mask. we create so many masks too, one for school, one for our parents one for friends, we keep making our lives complicated

marvin the paranoid android said...

@ vagabond dreamer
welcome...

Crimson Feet said...

@ marvin

:)
i am glad it was worth it

Ashen Glow said...

I closed my eyes in pain,amidst the maddening din
As ears throbbed, my masked self unleashed the evil within

Seems really scary when you cease to remain what you are... Let the mask perfected remain as a masterpiece you created for the world... It would take over the real self only if you let it do that.. Dont.

Cinderella. said...

Jekyll and Hyde !

Two flip sides of the same coin...no existence of them together without each other.

I think we all have some sacred evils within us. The ones that we create to save our weary souls from eetrnal bruises. For us they are saviours, for them its blasphemy !

LOved this post.

marvin the paranoid android said...

@ crimson feet...
so am i, man!!

marvin the paranoid android said...

@ ashen glow..
thanks for the concern... i will not let it...
the mask may have fooled those it was not intended to, but it cannot outwit its maker...

marvin the paranoid android said...

@ cinderella

thanks...

Crimson Feet said...

it doesn't really matter much but... why are the girls getting it wrong?!...this isn't jekyll and hyde!...

there is no good and bad here... just the real and the hidden! and usually the real has imperfections that the hidden does not!...
the real fails to realise, however, that its the imperfections that make it real, and therefore desirable!

marvin the paranoid android said...

@ crimson feet...

:P the wise one will not like it at all.. i mean beauty!!
but yes, you are correct.. i was about to point out as much, but then decided to follow someone's advice and let go, as i was already moving on after a prolonged discussion and putting up something new..

Crimson Feet said...

lol marvin... i guess cindy will not be too pleased with the fact that she is not being assumed to be 'the wise one' ;)
...and i am sure you'll manage beauty!

Crimson Feet said...

sorry... i worded it wrong!

what i meant (and marvin i am sure understood) was that, its the "real which is hidden and the unreal/made-up which is visible"

marvin the paranoid android said...

@ crimson feet..
man!! you are treading on thin ice.. and dragging me along for company too!!
ok let me correct myself... the wise ones won't like it at all!!
and by pointing out that i understood, you have made me a partner in crime!!!

Beauty and the BEast said...

@crimson feet and marvin

First things first, I thought the post was written, for every reader to perceive what they wanted and reach their own respective conclusions, so why then the discussion about whether it is a Jekyl and Hyde scenario or not?

But, while we are on this very interesting point, I must clarify, that Jekyl and Hyde was as much about the hidden and the unhidden as it was about the evil and the good. It was when the hidden could no longer bear to stay the hidden that it transformed into a new personality called Hyde..

As in much as the person who wants to hide behind the mask, but soon stands on the brink of becoming the mask himself...

Beauty and the BEast said...

@ marvin

I do not mean to say that I am trying to justify what you meant when you were writing..

What I say, is what I perceive from the words you have written..

Crimson Feet said...

yes yes... we agree!

*marvin and crimson nod in unison and go quiet with that wonderfully expressionless poker face thats their trademark*

PS - marvin dude. hope i am dragging you for the better now :)

Runa said...

the mask is your very own comfort zone, but is it really? are u really saved from all that's ugly and unwanted?

Cinderella. said...

LOl ! I am now at ease after reading Beauty and the Beast's comment. Coz my perception of your post had been just that.

Who were J & H ? Werent they the same person. And like Beauty has said, **It was when the hidden could no longer bear to stay the hidden that it transformed into a new personality called Hyde..**

So guys, donot pull the trigger too fast ! Slow down and ask why certain assertions were made, rather than having making your own funny conclusions...

Crimson Feet said...

@cindy --- For the greater good... let me just state the following -
our understanding was not funny albeit my articulation might have been (i was trying to work on a Monday after a 32 hour working weekend. worse things than this hardly happen :)) The difference between our view and your view is the following line -

"The personality of the mask need not be evil, its the idea of having a mask that is evil!"

But in J&H, H inherently is evil.
I hope this makes sense.

I do agree to beauty when she says that "It was when the hidden could no longer bear to stay the hidden that it transformed into a new personality called Hyde"

The line is thin... but it exists. That however, does not take away from your (and beauty's) interpretation.

cheers and peace!
CF

marvin the paranoid android said...

@ runa
i am indeed saved from the ugly and the unwanted... but only, in the bargain i have lost out o something that is important too...

anyways, a bargain i'll take anyday...

marvin the paranoid android said...

@ everyone
it is amazing to hear so many views and perceptions about one single thought that came into my wandering mind...
let me tell you though, the only thing i thought of while writing was a mask that someone very deliberately creates for himself.. so as to show off a himself in a particular light, which may not be entirely true...

this in no way takes away anything from what anyone might have said here, and i am indeed left illuminated... but i think we should move on, and let peace and harmony rule bloggersville....