Friday, April 25, 2008

Between Words

“True love does not have happy endings. It just has happy beginnings.”

It did have a happy beginning. But then things started going wrong. The blue skies with white fluffy clouds turned a cumbersome gray. The chirping parrots turned into screeching seagulls. He had hurt her and she was beyond doubt hurting. The burden of that knowledge weighed him down, choked every bit of emotion out of him, till all he could feel was a raw pain.

Everywhere he looked, he found himself staring into her black eyes. Black pearls, he always associated her eyes with black pearls. Beautiful and rare black pearls that would take divers to the depth of a turbulent ocean and emerge feeling as if they owned the world. Her eyes were full of life. Sparkling and clear. But the eyes that haunted him now were different. They were lifeless. Just like the thick grey murky water which was left behind after dousing a raging fire with a bucket of ice cold water. Gray ash mixed with water turning it to an almost black, still and lifeless.

He had willed her to display any emotion. Even wrath and hatred would have sufficed. But ironically what gripped his heart was the complete lack of emotion when she had looked at him that one last time. That was his punishment. One he could not endure.

It was still dark outside, but dawn would break in soon. The first ray slicing through the thick black like a flashlight belonging to a search party, hunting in the dark for their escaped convict. The light would find him and suddenly all lights in heaven would glow bright, flooding the area around him with daylight. They had found the guilty and now wanted the entire world to take a bloody good look at him.

He walked towards her house. His feet unable to carry the burden of his body, his heart making up for the lost momentum. His eyes raising themselves towards the window, they knew would be shut, yet willing them to open some locked up hope. Why was he going to her house? What did he have to say? Everything that had to be said had anyways always been left unspoken and that which did not need saying had been made explicitly clear. He walked to her door and took a deep breath. The fresh air spreading through his body like sweet poison, reminding him once again of the guilt which he would never forget.

He stood there for a complete minute facing the solid wood of the door. The barrier that now separated him from her. He looked down at the ends of his shoes, they were already beckoning him to move. He stared at the door one last time and then turned away and walked. Once again, leaving that which needed to be said, unsaid.

She watched from the window as he walked down the path, the winter winds blowing dried leaves in his way. The early fog swirled around him. He walked without looking back; he seemed in a hurry to get away. She watched the distance grow between them as the horizon swallowed him in lazy bites.

26 comments:

me in love said...

aww so sad... :( why didn't he just say it? there should not be anything unsaid in love yaar :( sad sad

Cinderella. said...

What has to me said, must be said !
At times, even when we know things, we just need someone to tell us.

I loved the last line most of all.

"....the horizon swallowing him in lazy bites."

Wow !

Beauty and the BEast said...

@ me in love

I know. but what to do.. sometimes.. people are just too scared to speak whats on their mind!!

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Beauty and the BEast said...

@Cindrella

At the lack of knowledge of how to edit a comment:P

Thanks for visiting US :)

And I just wanted to say that was prety quick as I was still busy reading other blogs!!

Welcome back anytime :)

Crimson Feet said...

"Everything that had to be said had anyways always been left unspoken and that which did not need saying had been made explicitly clear!"

but then... sometimes you just know that the words will never reach... never!

loved reading this... could almost see it. i was there... that was me!

Pollyannaish said...

yes..."True love does not have happy endings. It just has happy beginnings"...i completely agree with that... !!
"He stared at the door one last time and then turned away and walked. Once again, leaving that which needed to be said, unsaid." - why is the world full of such ppl ? always !

Crimson Feet said...

after reading and commenting on this post i went through all your posts from the begining... read all, commented on a few.. and finally... have decided to blogroll this blog!!
*you may clap for yourself* :)

do keep penning... i enjoyed it.

Macadamia The Nut said...

It's easy to write an whole essay about random stuff, but not as easy describing a 'special' moment.

Beautifully described!

marvin the paranoid android said...

as airtel people say, barriers break when people talk....

Beauty and the BEast said...

@ crimson feet

Thanks for blogrolling this Blog! Its an honour appreciated!!

And yes sometimes words might just never reach where you want them to..

Beauty and the BEast said...

@ pollyannaish

I so know what you mean and who you mean!!

Maybe I should have said, that they do sometimes say what they mean but then claim that they never said it at all!!

Damn! But yes.. this guy could have so been him!

Beauty and the BEast said...

@ macadamia the nut

Thanks!

and feel free to drop by.. we often have special moments commemorated here :)

Beauty and the BEast said...

@ marvin

you do like the airtel ad dont you??

Yes barriers do break when people talk!! If only people actually accepted that

marvin the paranoid android said...

not too much.. i like the vodafone ads better... :P

but i do believe in the fact that barriers do break when people talk...

Beauty and the BEast said...

@ marvin

the one with the puppy?? or the random ones which are sometimes so cool?

And I do believe what you believe in (for this one time at least :p)

Cinderella. said...

I'm gonna link to these wild imaginations.
Loved it absolutely.
And yor post, 'red' - amazing !!

marvin the paranoid android said...

finally we agree to agree on something...

Beauty and the BEast said...

@Cindrella!

Thanks a tonne!!

I am glad you liked Red :)

Beauty and the BEast said...

@ marvin

we do :)

vagabond dreamer said...

a lot of stories have sad endings because we tend to hold what we really feel inside us, we let pride interfere and we suffer the consquences for the rest of our lives

Ashen Glow said...

A wonderful piece of mind... :)
loved every bit of it...
will come back for more!

Beauty and the BEast said...

@vagabond dreamer

How so true! If only we could overcome superficial inhibitions, we might just be happier people

Beauty and the BEast said...

@ashen glow

welcome back any and every time :)

Runa said...

a beautiful piece of thought that will never have a happy end that it so rightfully deserved...why is life like this? and we could do without happy beginnings, they are what bring us down, makin us believe there is utopia...

Mavron said...

I luved every bit of it...n I think it is all too real.It happens all the time.simplest of things are left untouched by a bewildering variety of complexity...most of the times we wait for the other person to speak..only sometimes the time never comes.You'r an awesome writer,amazing writer.u have really given a breakup athough provoking tint..looking forward to some more...n yup ur blog goes to my blogroll